I feel lonely....
When you realize your high school life is gna end, and there's so many things you wna do, but yet so little time to spend your time with your friends. In such a sudden you realize, you don't know who to spend your time with. This feel lonely...
One day i was sitting on the couch talking to my dad's friend. he told me that high school friends are nothing, because they're not close enough. But i disagree with him. Then he told me the true meaning of 'close friends'. They are the ones who can always go out with u and spend time with you together. ALWAYS. and you guys sit around and chat about the things happening in your life. ALWAYS.
The first thing come in my mind was... he's right.
And he asked me again, "do you have any close friends?" Come to think of it, not many. Only a few. But a few is more than enough. There're only 4 or 5 of them, that came from a small society. We nvr spend much time tgt in school, but yet, A LOT of time hanging out. I really appreciate that x) I miss the times we always talk about our life. So different, but yet, so awesome. To be one of the listener, is the greatest feeling.
And then, a sudden feel of loneliness came to me. What about my classmates? Or my ex-classmates? Those who spend the most time with me in school. Why aren't they my so called 'close friends' when we hang out so much in school. Come to think of it, all we did was fooling around, meet each other at school, had lunch together, and mayb talk about school works and stuff. Do we usually go out together? I mean.. did we? Did we actually sit down and talk anything about our life? Like our problems? Or families? just anything, did we?
I don't know why. I just hate this feeling. I don't wna end my high school life like this. This feel like a SHIT! Is this my problem?
My phone is always so quiet... My life is quiet too...
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